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You know my blog was once a joy of mine to post pictures and fun things that I'm doing. Sorry that it has become nothing more than a place for me to complain. I really want to travel, but going around alone seems too lonely these days. It's like nothing makes me happy right now. Maybe it's really worse right now because I just got a mistaken facebook tag requst from Megumi... Just seeing her name brought back so many thoughts and feelings.Why does this still bother me so much? What the hell is wrong with me? I can't wait to get over this, It's been 6 months and I'm still hurting... Why??? I've never been through anything like this before. Sure my frist girlfried I was upset for a while after we broke up, maybe like 3 month or something, but I got over it.. I realized how things were and whatnot. That it was impossible. But with this I don't have that kind of solid feeling.. I just know its over and I have to accept that, and I have. But it still hurts... Maybe it's a combination of things.. I lost my job that I loved, the girl I loved and I don't have a best friend around that I know will hang out with me and go places. BTY I have a job the just relocated me to a new school. My last school was like a big family. This seems more like a job than fun, because I'm busy most all of the time I'm at work.

It's amazing how you can have all the things in the world but without people you will never be happy. This is why I have always focused on having quality friends around me. Here that has proven challenging, but I do have some really great friends. The one thing I've never been able to get right is finding my other half. I meet so many girls that seem like they might be the one, but once I get to know them I realize its all wrong.

So I'll finish this on that note..
I think I'm looking for someone who is first of all, Kind and caring about people around them, isn't selfish, is very understanding and flexible, likes children, can be silly, not too serious, but hard working and knows when to be serious, likes comedy movies, enjoys the beach, likes to travel, loves family and friends, loves people in general. Likes to smile...

Anyhow... I think that's the outline of who I'm looking to meet. An almost impossible combination. Of course I'm not so picky that a girl has to meet this exactly. Just this is what I think is ideal..

Now off to try to meet some people somehow. My ideal girl isn't going to be sitting around my house today, well probably not then again who knows!