Finally settled in

Ok so what makes me more setteled in than I was the last 2 years I have been here. Well now I am surrounded by as many electronics in pieces as I am at home. Cant really explain it, but without the junk around here to challenge me I felt like part of me was missing. Well that and having a car was another big part. The one major thing I dont have is a best friend here, unfortunately. I have become more independend and self sufficient than before, but its difficult at times still... Took a long time to get here. And to think I may be leaving in half of a year. Kinda saddning.. The only thing I am missing for the time being is that special girl in my life. I have one that is very kind and good to me, but I am trying to ke ep us just as friends. Something just doesnt feel right about going farther with her. Last thing I want to do is put ourselves through what I went through last year, weather it be her or me. Either way, I am happy to be here and I am feeling really good about the future, even though what it holds is quite uncertain at this point. Where will I be in 1 year? Japan or the USA? If I do return home when will I come back to Japan?? I dont feel like I can just completely jump ship from here now... It has somehow grown on me to the point I cant live witout it. I will always of coruse be an American, although part of me has been changed by living here.

Well to fun days and new expirences! And to snowboarding again this year!